Do you remember who you dreamed of becoming when you were young? It’s interesting, I find, how our visions of our ‘possible-future-self’ develop as the years pass, and how they continually evolve as we grow older, learn about life, and develop new interests.
All of your experiences have contributed to the image you’ve created, and how you see yourself in relation to everything and everyone else in your world. Consider for a moment if there’s a possibility that the image you’ve created could be flawed, not in a way that’s wrong, but more in a way that might just be incomplete.
In my late teens, when I first saw my own potential to manifest, I formed an image of what I would aspire to be. Without focus or direction, I began to explore different areas and talents I was developing. I was only focusing on a limited view of my potential looking for quick satisfaction and fast results leading to success.
Our struggles are meant to guide us.
I worked and trained for many years to establish myself as a respected professional woman, envisioning how I’d work my way into a high-level management position within a successful company. Except, every time I made any progress towards this dream, something would block my ability to stay in the flow.
The power of determination helped me persevere through all my setbacks and see the new paths available at each dead end – but changing course when you are determined to succeed is extremely hard as feelings of failure creep in. The disappointment alone makes you question everything, from your reality and who you are, to your worth.
For me, the things limiting my chance at success manifested as:
- Having insufficient experience to get the jobs I was applying for.
- The inability to secure permanent positions or turn temporary ones into longer employment.
- An unwillingness to stay with disreputable companies not aligned with my values.
- Experiencing moments of low self-esteem with a lack of confidence in my abilities.
- Settling for a position just to pay the bills, and losing focus of my goals.
- Allowing the needs, wants, and fears of others to hold me back from taking action.
- And finally, having children and feeling as if I was giving up on my dream when deciding to be a stay-at-home-mom
I’m sure many of you can relate to these types of struggles. Yet, even though I was able to intuit that these events (which seemed to restrict me) were in fact, outside forces (maybe even divine intervention) strategically guiding me through the experiences I needed, I still relentlessly questioned my life.
Where did it all go wrong and how do I get back on track?
I spent much time trying to manoeuver around each dead end – thinking that if I kept trying, I would eventually prevail – until finally, I conceded, and accepted the circumstances I found myself in. Yet, to be honest, I never did fully accept them; inside me that flame still burned. There was always this inner urge that my life was meant for more than ‘just’ being a housewife and mother.
This restlessness is what gives us the strength to find our mission. It reminds us that we haven’t got everything neatly figured out; it keeps the questions popping into our minds, and instils the desire to seek the answers we yearn for.
Some struggles don’t just guide us, they shake us up from the inside and wake us up to a whole new world. It wasn’t until I started thinking about who I am and what kind of parent I wanted to be, that I began to enter the flow, allowing the answers to come to me through coincidences.
One of those coincidences was finding The Celestine Prophecy series and eventually the CP Insight Chatting group, which later led me to joining the Celestine Vision Team. As I stepped into my new position, I started to see an old dream begin to emerge, one that stemmed from a child’s wish to be of service to others – the path was clear and magically destined – everything placed in just the right spots to bring me to this moment. Yet, here I am sitting in my home office, still fantasizing about that professional image in an upper management position. And on my mind, is that envious question asking, “Why does it seem so easy for others to enter the flow, make progressive growth, and achieve exactly what they have been working so hard for?”