So....

[shodog21]

Well... I don't know where to start. About 5 or 6 years ago I was living in Southern California and really living on the edge, if you know what I mean. I was oblivious to my controll drama (Which is aloof. Well, in most situations at least), and was never really concerned with the welfare of others and most of all my self. I did a few drugs here and there and lived a very promiscuous life. I was definetly on the downward spiral. Then, lucky for me, a friend of mine gave me the Celestine Prophecy and said that he had read it and started talking about coincidences and energy. That's all that it took for me because I have always been very spiritual and always thought my soul has been old and restless. Sometimes I would see things out in beautiful landscapes where I was growing up and feel a connectivity that would click on and off like a bad radio station. After reading the book it completely changed the way I looked at the world. Everything seemed to click. I felt like everything made sense. I now follow the vision as best as I can. I recently have had a new baby girl, and I know that if it weren't for the wisdom the book has given me I wouldn't have as much cofidence and be the teacher that she needs me to be for her. I know that I'll be able to go into nature with her and help her connect with the greatest teacher in the world... Mother Nature. Thank you for the books and the ray of light that helped me out of my dark tunnel.

Jeremiah Schoenfeldt (Shodog)
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[michellepetkus]

Hi Jeremiah,

Nice to meet you.

Michelle

[littlebird]

Dear Jeremiah,

That is an awesome story. I love to hear how we are all growing spiritually.

Welcome, with gratitude to you and for your daughter.
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[truth]

Hi Jeremiah,

Welcome!

Do you think our more creative/sensitive souls are more prone to drug use? If so, is it due to their lack of opportunity to learn the joy of giving when young?

Too heavy? Ignore me - the questions popped into my head after reading your post.

Enjoy both yours and your daughter's journeys.

[shodog21]

Thanks a bunch for the support guys.
Truth, when it comes to my personal journey and drug use, I look back on it as a step in my life that I was meant to take. I think that it did help me break some through some of the social barriers that society has built up around us, but it also damaged my mind, something that I wish I had never done. It all can be extreemly evil... it's like being able to see the light at the end of the tunnel at times (in all it's beauty), but then something takes away your ability to explain what you saw to others. And if you try you sound like an idiot. To this day, they say I'm in danger of going over the edge again and never coming back, even with something as light as alcohol.
I think people can be just as creative without drugs, they just lack the natural inspiration.
As for youth not being taught about drugs and the effects they have, I couldn't agree more. It's funny how some people avoid talking about this sort of thing because they are afraid of what we might say.
I appreciate the feedback. I really do have a lot I think I can share with the community, as well as benefit from the comments of others.
Truth, if you have more to say about this let me know.
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[kelly]

Welcome to the forum, Jeremiah

Your baby girl is a real gift...enjoy!

Blessings,
Kelly

[truth]

Hi Jeremiah,

I agree: we have to talk about these issues to understand why, in order for the solutions to become clear from a common sense perspective. I've only ever used alcohol to escape the reality that I thought I had to live - I was lucky, I minimised my use to weekends so it didn't affect my work.

What I want to do with education is instil a true sense of self in all children in order to ensure that they understand their reality; one from which they would never consider wanting to escape.

Post often and from your heart - you do have much to share.

[EYEMAN]

yo shodog,

id like to welcome you here as well man, nice story, congrats on your baby girl to dude.
Its never easy bringing little ones in to the world, but you will be fine im sure.
just show love when you can and dont let your stress pass on, this is a mistake ive made in the past and it s not good.
personelly i dont think that certain drugs or alchohol are that bad in moderation, as you say it give a bit more insight in to lifes problems.
when we are trying to explain things we can seemingly explain things more clearer with a bit more soul man.
i hope you enjoy your journey.
catch you later buddy.
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[janders1957]

Welcome! You have done very well for yourself, moving away from drugs just from reading a book. I think many take drugs just for escape, but some are seeking something. That's how it was with me.

I remember as a late teen, getting high with friends. I'd look around and see people that were not likely to get anywhere in life the way they were going. I thought, 'this is fun for now, but someday I'll get on with my life'.
I had to move 200 miles away to really break from my past though. It's not an easy step to take. I applaud you for doing so, and for seeking answers and bettering yourself.

Jon

[Darin Hamel]

Great intro, welcome to CV.

[Jennypoo]

Welcome Jeremiah

I wanted to share a recent experience of my own--- about a year ago when ---I went to my nephew's church one Sunday around Christmas!!!

I went to visit a new kind of church that my nephew encouraged me to visit --- No judgement is made here he told me about how much money you make, the clothes you wear, or your own personal beliefs!!!

I did not want to go into another building--- believing that I would once again--- come out sad that it was not a house of prayer---You see as a young adult ---I went out to test every spirit---I mean---I went to every type of church--- that would let me in the door!!!

I always heard people asking about how much money they should put into offering plates or give at the year end--- or who was going to heaven and who was going to hell!!

I did not hear a lot about true brotherly love ---the stuff God in Christ was teaching me ---from my bible in my own personal studies and I did not hear a lot about true forgiveness--- and the real meaning of charity which in the webster's dictionary means LOVE!!!

I went into my nephew's church and the preacher seemed very upset and mostly talked about ---how he let everyone down--- because he could not afford a new building--- and I gave some money to help!!!

I was ask to come back and do some good in my community--- by giving out presents to the needy---Great I thought ---right up my alley!!!

I love to give and too love

I go to the church--- and it is the day before--- the day of giving is to occur---
and I am there on time ---to help do the real work of setting up their system to make people in need fill out forms and line up at tables inside the church for clothes and toys---- that the community and church members have donated for this cause---

I walk up and see a young man with his head hanging heavy --- looking down--- as if he isn't worthy of the breathe of life ---God himself hath freely breathed into him---I said hello and ask where I should go to help---I felt completely drawn to him and he glanced up and mumbled I will check for you lady.

This young man returns still fearful and clearly ashamed of living in the same earth as me and all around him--- saying lady ---they all got here extra early today ---and it is all done--- but the preacher said--- to come in and talk with everyone ---who has done all this good for God in Christ!!!

I said ---you are good enough ---for me to talk too--- aren't you?
My name is Jennypoo--- what is your name --- oh no lady-- I am not good like these people and you are---

and I said excuse me? ---He then looked at me and said I don't know why--- I am going to tell you this lady--- but I am no Good--- because ---I just got out of a Rehab!!!

I am only here because I have to ride around and help these good people that are working today in this church ---I am just a failure and a drug dealer & addict and Alcoholic---I even sold drugs lady--- you can go now-

I said look--- I like you--- you are a beautiful young man and I really like your hair--- it looks just like Jesus hair--- it's beautiful and you must be very good-- you beat me here---
and helped all the work to get done--- even before I walked up ---and you offered me--- your kindness and I want you to know ---that I got off with a pretty rough start--- at your age myself!!!

I told him that you cannot out drink me young man nor can you out drug me and you will never out sell me and my first husband in weed!!!

HE WAS SHOCKED!!!

Someone like you lady--- did all that?

I said yes--- how in the world do you think God in Christ ---could have better prepared me--- for this exact moment in time ---right now---right here ---with you?

Hold up your head young man
and go forth from this day---
--- and give your life to God in Christ---not in a building--- as this ---you are God's son ---you are his church--- being spiritually built up in christ Jesus ---you are better than me--- and don't give your self-esteem away--- nor your own personal power--- to anyone--- believing that they are better than you!!!

He was still SHOCKED ---But now his head was up--- and he was filled with the love of God in Christ--- and he smiled and looked--- like a new person!!!

He then said--- but what about what all these official people that are beating into my head ---about how bad I am--- for breaking the law ---and stealing from this community--- & how I better work with these people for free--- to pay for my crimes against God?

I said young man who do you think my first husband & his crazy friend got their weed from--- to sell so we could pay the rent and eat--- ( seeing how we married way to young) ---He said I don't know lady ---who did they get it from?

I simply told him the truth---THEY STOLE IT FROM THE OFFICIALS--- Who protected it with shotguns --on-- four-wheelers--- for the local SHERRIFF---that's right folks ---the very best guy in town---the one we all thought was so--- GOOD ---was the one who sat in church and pretended--- but was so bad!!! (Seeing how he & his friends could not apply the laws unto themselves!!!)

Now I did explain to this young man--- my own experiences were not for him to follow--- but simply to understand--- that he needed to go get a paying job, an apartment, and perhaps hang out with a different crowd until--- he could get into a community college ---and support himself & then go back out into the world clean and ready--- in his own heart with God in Christ ---to serve God like I was doing--- because God put me back onto the better path--- in my life & gave me the knowledge--- I was worthy!!!

I thanked him--- for helping me--- to know why God in Christ--- sent me there--- at that time ---on that day!!!

I went into this church--- which by now--- looked like a retail store ---and all the people talked about--- was how they had gotten up so early--- and spent all their money--- to help all those people--- who of course would show up with--- ID and fill out long forms--- and get a few things to help their needy helpless self---or themselves--- the next day!!!

I then remember Christ words in the new testament---my Father's house is a house of prayer---not a house of merchandise---the day Christ lost his temper ---and destroyed the retail shop ---even back then ---that the people had set up ---inside the church!!!

I am not saying there is anything wrong with going to church--- or drugs--- or giving to the needy--- but -----why did I have to teach this young man--- outside on the sidewalk--- about God in Christ--- in front of a church--- full of good and ---good doing people?
Where was the preacher?
why had he not already been told--- he was our equal---worthy--- being born into sin ---and our equal ---worthy--- in the inheirtance of Christ?

God in Christ--- through me--- had to do it--- himself!!!

Also as for--- (giving as a child)--- that is all--- I was taught to do and wanted too do for all others--- and was raised--- very spiritual in this strong--- charity belief--- and to avoid drugs--- at all cost---it was only after these later experiences--- with others in need--- did I see--- why God in Christ ---not only allowed me to get off the correct path--- but later returned me--- to it--- and allows me ---even now--- to continue this enlightenment!!!

Sorry--- if this is a bit much--- but I felt compelled--- to share this!!!

I just remember in the scriptures ("Judge not lest ye be judged")

Peace and love and mercy be with you all love from Jennypoo
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Jennypoo loves you too!!!

[truth]

Hi Jennypoo,

Thank you for being such a good spirit.

I was going to write an insight today about how we are all worthy - my brain, frantically ticking over... Well, reading your heartfelt post awoke my spirit, so I now believe my writing will be heart instead of head-based.

Thank you for the reminder...

[EYEMAN]

hi jenypoo,
that was brilliant and your a really brave woman, you must have made the guy realise a lot of stuff that day, and even if he didnt change he must be about six foot taller mentally. I appreciate what you wrote and urge you to keep up the good work, fantastic.
i know you will anyway.
bye for now, cusoon.
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[Jennypoo]

Hey all good spirits

I think God in Christ made me see something in that young man that day that we are all looking for--- a connected spirit in--- HONESTY!!!

This is how we all see that (no one spirit) is of any more importance in God's eyes ----than the other!!!

Makes me feel good to know God in Christ uses us all for his good will!!!

Anyway (Love ya)--- all and chat with you all--- later--- peace and mercy and love be ---with and in you--- all ---(until later)--- Jennypoo
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