My experience.

[yaasun]

To understand this story, you need to know a couple things

Yaasun = ME, main narrator of this story.

Danielle = My girlfriend

Rob = Best friend of mine

Dan = Best friend of mine

Rob and Dan Born 1985 Died 2004



This is just a general post of my story/experience, maybe one of many i have had. This is just to share and discuss if anyone is interested in discussing something related or not to my story feel free. I'm not looking for answers, this is so straight forward its child's play. This occurred before i ever heard and read, anything about the REDFIELD collection or anything relating to it.



So, you know about that death of rob and Dan,

They died on the Sunday morning at 5-6 in the morning. I was at Danielleís sleeping over waiting for morning to come, me and her were going to leave early to Niagara Falls, for the night or two, it was my birthday next week and I wanted to do something with her cause she didnít have ID to go to a club 19 + with me. That sat night she had to lie to her mom, say to her that we would be in Kitchener staying over at my cousins house for the night and going to my uncles bar for dinner and dance. That Saturday night I was so high on weed, we got in at around 12, we were in her kitchen and I had this bad feeling like I just got up after being on a couch for a while, u know a head rush, black out, about to fall over, only problem was I was standing and walking around the whole time. Made me think I really smoked to much, but it was, right after, I got a vision or a saying come into my head that I could not keep inside my head, I grabbed Danielle and whispered in her ear like a secret so her sis and boyfriend on the couch didnít hear.

ìWere no going make it out your house tomorrowî

She was confused

So I said

ìI know you lied to your mom perfectly, I donít know why or what but it has nothing to do with that, your mom is going to buy the lie completely,î

Then she got mad and looked at me and said

ìSHUT up, Are you trying to jinks it, I did everything you told me to doî

I go to her again,

ìI know, its not you, I just know more the anything right now, that we wont even going to make it out your door tomorrowî

So she walks away and gets ready for bed. The feeling never left me and started to scare me like I knew something special, so true and I wasnít doing anything about it.

That whole night I bugged her to talk to me because I couldnít sleep, I poked her in the back, in bed and asked her to stay up, no sex just comfort me and talk, she couldnít understand anything at the time and ignored me cause now it was 3 in the morning, so I kept poking her until she turned and pushed me, I totally exaggerated and rolled off the bed thinking that it might awake her out of her ignorance and respect my wishes. She tried verbally to call me off the floor where I was acting like a child but she couldnít, I fell asleep there and maybe around the time they died I think, I woke up and went back to sleep on the bed. Only for a couple more minutes because cause at 9 I was pushing her into the shower to get ready to hit the road early, get a head start and still thinking that hopefully my feeling was connected to her mom and the lie, I wanted to catch her still in bed where she could not really put up a fight while she was in bed with her boyfriend (talking about the mom and her boyfriend, not me and Danielle).

With the turn of the water for the shower, the phone range, no one answered, but my mom left a sad sounding message for me to call the house.

She got the news before me, and wasnít sure if I was dead to with them that night.

If I was 19 that week and not September 7, I might have been in that car, but that may have altered the route that night went and not allowed us to die on the road, they did. When my mom heard my voice she started to cry and tell me that rob and Dan died on the road that early morning. I wasnít even the slightest bit phased or affected or shocked, I looked at Danielle who was looking at me curiously at her door. I said.

ìRob and Dan died this morning in a car accidentî

She turned and ran bursting into her momís room half naked screaming more then crying unable to get the words out of her mouth. Her mom came to me and asked what happened, and comforted me, a human who was emotionless, not looking like he lost his two best friends a moment ago. I got to Danielle a couple minutes later when she calmed down and said in her ear,

ìThatís what I was talking aboutî

I couldn't be affected, but as soon as I got the word from my mom, I spoke to GOD for one sentence and said,

ìGod please forgive me for asking you to reveal yourself to me, I no longer want to experience your power, for, I felt it and it was to real for my earthly selfî

I looked over both my shoulders and said to my friends,

ìSo this is how itís going to be from now on eh? Alright letís do itî

[Theressa]

Hi Yaasun,



Your last few sentences have brought tears to my eyes. My aunt had the same sort of dream when my grandfather died. She felt guilty she didn't stop it. But, the truth is we cannot stop the universe or divert it from its plan. This is when we really realise the power, the plan of the universe is out of our hands.



The power of connection is truly beautiful to have but so painful to lose.



Namaste -

Theressa

[yaasun]

thank you very much for your reply.

this original post, along with an email i sent to a close friend, of the exact same story, who i felt was on the level to understand and appreciate my story, were the only two times i repeated my experience since the day it occoured.

What is of significance to me from your reply is in your first line.

you and my friend i emailed the story to, wrote me the same message back.

concerning you and my friend being brought to tears, i didn't not make this story in a way to get that reaction, i just laid out the Absolute truth in words and let it be read. as far as i am concerned i have been a weak writer through grade school and high school, but this story came together in a way that i was very happy to let another person read. your reply is so very much appreciated and like the insights say about coincidence, i have found one in your reply, yet another coincidence.



with love

Jason

[Theressa]

Hi Jaasun,



I think that things in our environment trigger reactions/feelings/thought patterns we need to heal, become aware of.



For me the tears are about me beginning to open my heart and see the love I do have in my life but the flip side of that is that I can lose this person but I will know I was and will always be loved. I know this is about me letting my guard down.



Speak to you soon

Theressa

[yaasun]

this letting your guard down for someone you love, i was experience thoughts about this idea very recently about my parents, and how our relationship has evoled over time.

when i was a teenager, traditionally my parents may play the role of the enemy standing between me and my choices. but in my life they didnt stand between me and my wants and needs, they did an amazing job at fulfilling them.

that being said i believe that i didnt show them enough love in return,

during that age.



i become more wiser and analized my past and began to feel guilty and realize i was wasting special time every second i was with my parents.

i was wasting time with them because i wasnt giving them all i could and i knew that insde. so i made a consience decision to be as loving as i could be to them because NOW, which is the time to do so and therefore not giving me the chanced to look back in a tragic early death of one of them and say i should of done this or that differently.

i find you words of great wisdom for how much they relate to my life.

[Theressa]

Hi Yaasun,



I think we are all guilty of not being very loving to our parents during the teen years. However, it is a developmental stage where by we have to rebel so we can separate from our parents and become individuals. We reject their ideas and and thoughts etc and question them so that we can decide what is right for us. So no guilt needed. What matters is that now you are mature you are more conscious of your behaviour.



I think one of our main jobs as adults is seeing the distortions in our thinking patterns. We pick up patterns without question as children. Also, sometimes we interpret behaviour so literally due to our immature natures. I think that is why we have anger. It signals where we have distortions . A course in miracles says: There are no new feelings/reactions. However, there are meanings we attach to certain types of situation. I think this is part of our protection at an ego level. I know at a soul level we cannot be harmed but our ego feels hurt.



I am less afraid of dying but I dread missing those closes to me if they die. I guess however, life does go on. I know when my nan was alive she said this to me. "Child when I am gone your life will go on. You must get on with life." She was absolutely right eventually you get used to the person no longer being there.



Namaste -



Speak to you soon



Theressa