Scots_Nomad
Joined: 18 Aug 2009
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 Posted: Fri Feb 05, 2010 12:56 am Post subject: The Dark Side Of The Sun... |
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Hi SL,
Not sure if he’s talking about the same thing (it’s kinda hard to tell with such little info), but a lot of his words rang a bell with me and reminded me of the experiences I went through back in 2004. To get to the level of understanding I reached then I had to forget almost everything I had ever learned before – or actually it may be better to say that I had to remember everything I had learned before but then learn how to put it all together in a completely different order. You have to be prepared to question everything that you previously believed was ‘absolute’ and redraw the line between what you thought was possible and impossible. After all, as the saying goes, “If you always do what you always did then you will always get what you always got”.
I certainly understand the idea of feeling like you have to let go of everything around you and somehow separate yourself from the rest of humanity in order to reach that new level (new levels) of understanding, and in fact I touched on that feeling in my last posting on this site 10 days or so ago (under the topic Three Days From Yesterday within the ‘Insights Into The Future’ heading) where my post included this short extract from the book I wrote about me experiences back in 2004:-
"I know I am joking about this, but this is some heavy shit! Do you realise how far out over 'the abyss' I feel right now? If you drop me now I am totally f**ked! What would be the point in going on if you can't trust any of your senses? There is no point in doing clever stuff with data if you don't really trust the data in the first place. Why would I bother thinking? How can I stop thinking? Why would I bother getting out of my bed in the morning? I could be really f**ked here!"
"Is that what you think?"
"Actually, I think I am probably already f**ked, and that is the scary thing that you probably don't really understand. How could I get back from here on my own?"
"We understand, but you don't need to worry. We know you can get through this, and we promise we won't drop you"
"Yeah! I have heard that before!"…
I also discussed that same feeling in more depth and detail in another part of my book (where I was actually relating the story of what happened to me back in 2004 to one of my friends and trying to explain how I felt during those experiences):-
“…At one point I thought I had become stuck between two worlds. 'The Gap' between me and any other human I had even met was stretched to dimensions that I had never imagined, and yet I knew I was still a long way from the world that seemed to be doing the stretching.
Worse still! That 'new world' had already admitted to me that they had tried to put me back 'a million times before' without success - each time apparently serving only to stretch the gap further as in every case I just sprinted my way back up the down escalator towards them 'two steps at a time'. That's when I feared that I may have become the cleverest goldfish in the Universe, trapped in a continuously shrinking bowl of time.
My friends had the only solution to the paradox in which I found myself trapped, but could I trust them? After all, they were the c**ts that had lured me into the chat in the first place!
"Look, we can put you back once again but we all know what will happen after that, so the best things that you can do is to come all the way to us, and by the time you reach where we are you will have learned enough to find your own way back, and in fact, we should be able to give you a bit of a sling-shot effect that will get you back quicker than if you were to turn around and start heading back the same way you came. Do you understand what we mean?"
"You mean like some mental Apollo 13, where they had to go around the moon to get back to Earth?"
(HUGE APPLAUSE)
"Actually it would be more appropriate to consider us as the Sun rather than the moon but that's exactly what we mean!"
"F**king hell!...You're telling me that my best option is to deliberately chose to follow in the footsteps of Apollo 13?"
"No, we're not telling you that. Aren't you listening to what we tell you yet?"
(Pause for thought)
"OK, OK, I get it! You're actually telling me that my ONLY option is to do an Apollo 13! I got that really, but f**k sake, it sounds scary enough when I said it the other way! What the f**k happens if I fall off half-way round?"
"We know that you can do it without that happening!"
"Do you know YOU can do it without it happening though?"
"That depends on you."
"How many times have you done it before?"
“You mean, counting you?"
"In other words, you've never done this before!"
(BIG APPLAUSE!)
"I had a feeling you were gonna say that!....F**k it! Let's go! It looks like my rocks are caught between a hard place and a hard place, so I can’t stick around here forever!"
(BIG APPLAUSE)
"That's brave."
"F**K! Why did you have to say that? This is tough enough! Don't tell me how much something is gonna hurt, just tell me what I have to do and then tell me when it’s over."
"But even if we know that it couldn’t hurt you a bit, we would still have to note how brave you were being, coz you would only have our word for that."
"Please don't say another word! Everything you say is making things worse! Just let’s get on with it!"
Then I tried to make a bit of a joke to make light of my terror.
"So,...does this mean I will get to see the dark side of the Sun?"
(HUGE APPLAUSE)
"AWWW SHITE! Why did I have to say that? Now you got me dreading finding out what you actually mean by 'the dark side of the Sun' and what it's gonna be like to get there."
"Don't worry Wee Man. It is best that you know that you will get to see the dark side of the Sun, but as long as you keep going onwards no-matter-what, and keep reminding yourself that you are just passing through, you will make it back to the sunny side again."
"But what if I can't?"
"Let's just say that 'you don't want to go there'!"… |
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