Hello & Anxiety

[jonutah]

Hello,

My name is Jon. I read the Celestine Prophesy during a period of self-discovery in the 90s. At the time, I found the idea of synchronicity as one of the only things that gave me the sense that something bigger was happening all around us. Up until recently, I found peace in a feeling that things were interconnected and that there was some secret something guiding us through these synchronistic events.

Now mind you, I've had anxiety all of my life (that I know) which mostly manifests itself as an inability to concentrate. I have had panic attacks (none in the last 8 years or so). I take medication (lexapro) and for the past year have been panic and mostly anxiety free due to a healthy equal dose of exercise, good eating, sleep, and stability in family and job. My anxiety is mainly related to lack of control as it relates to things like flying and the unknown (death). In fact, I've recently felt stuck in a mode of being really afraid of death and unable to regain that sense of peace I had up until now. What caused this recent change in outlook? Some of it is attributed to some issues my wife and I have had (which are resolving very positively), some attributed to deaths of people I've known (and in the media), watched Religulous recently, and perhaps even due to it being the time of year when my dad died. I'm 42 too, and I am going through that whole mid-life "what the purpose" stuff too. I wish I weren't so dang sensitive sometimes.

Anyway, I thought I'd revisit the Celestine Prophesy and see if it still resonated with me because right now I'm stuck on the feeling that there are no mysteries and that I'm here today but perhaps someday gone forever. And foreever is a big, scary word. I'm holding on to things too tightly right now - kind of like a scared rock climber holds on too hard to the rock and isn't efficient or graceful.

Oh, I am getting counseling on this too. And, trying to write a lot about my thoughts and the synchronistic events that are popping up (even if its just a few). Just thought I'd also join up here to chat with folks. If you have any insights you can share, that'd be welcome too!

Nice to meet you,

Jon

[michellepetkus]

Hello Jon,

Well I can see how feeling like we might just disappear when we die might cause you to feel anxious. For me I simply focus on my faith that there really has to be a point or we wouldn't exist in the first place. We exist for a purpose and that purpose is far bigger than just this simple life we live right now. I might suggest to you to see if you can find the book, Journey of Souls by Michael Newton. It is a book about people who were hypnotized and remembered what it was like in between lives. What grabbed me about it was the fact that all these people who did not know each other had very similar recollections of their life between lives. It was quite compelling and gave me even more peace of mind about what is going to happen once I pass. Maybe it can give you a bit of peace of mind too. My best to you.

Love,
Michelle

[jonutah]