Needing to start over

[Eagle Woman]

I hope I can post this issue clearly. I've lost my ability to meditate and focus. I've lost my connection. I've had a couple of years of "dramas" and I've lost my support group and my connection with myself. The dramas have left me tired...my energy drained from those who take my energy from me.
I am having trouble with my visions and my healings. I've found or rather they found me, two young people who want to do meditation with me. I believe this is the first step to reclaiming my spirit. I've always had a spirit leader but she has abandon the group and left our group adrift. I've lost connection with the group also. I am not sure I can step up to that position of spiritual leader or meditation leader.
Any suggestions would be very helpful. Thank you.
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Eagle Woman

[Inedible]

The first thing I would suggest is from the books, the 8th Insight. It talks about how by looking for the higher expression in each others' faces and appreciating them for who they are you can send energy to each other. The energy builds as everyone in the group sends and receives energy. You can reach higher levels together than you can individually. You can do this with two people but it works better with three. After that it is important to keep the groups small enough that no one gets left out unintentionally. In discussion, the energy moves from person to person and lands with the person who has the next idea to express. Problems occur when someone doesn't express the idea, or tries to keep going to hold the energy instead of allowing it to flow to the next person. These problems can happen in regular conversation in a group, and you probably have already seen how it can get in the way. Also, if one person finds negative feelings start to creep in about someone in the group it should be addressed because they may tend to focus on negatives instead of the person's higher expression and the process can start to happen in reverse. When I was a little kid in school I experienced seeing someone's appearance start to change during conversation. I couldn't say how they were different, but somehow I felt and saw a shift happen as though the person had suddenly become a better person. I didn't understand it at the time. It even happened with people I didn't particularly like, which confused me even more. It was easier to talk to the better version of the person, so it didn't take me long to get into the habit of doing this. It doesn't happen often now, but I think that if I got into the habit again it could. It would be nice to have even just two people to work with in person.

The other thing is that if you could all learn reiki that would make it easier to connect with energy. Or some other system.